Wednesday 10 November 2010

Avoiding? No just resting.......

Well, here I am again trying to write another essay and yet finding it very easy to distract myself with blogging and updating my projects on Ravelry!  I suppose I had better write something insightful to make it seem more necessary.


I'm gradually getting over a low patch (probably caused by a combination of stress, circumstances and hormones).  It left me feeling very tired and unmotivated to do anything that required leaving a compfy spot.  Luckily I could still knit and spin so I tried really hard to go with that and not give myself a hard time.  So what if I had a mountain of books and articles that needed reading, so what if I was meant to be helping organise a social event for the PTA and so what if.....well just so what.  At one point I even let the children eat pot noodles for tea (I wonder if that admission will be one of those internet things that hounds me for the rest of my life!!) 


I think I must be naturally busy person because after a week of being 'kind to myself' I started to get a bit impatient and frustrated. I started thinking a week is long enough surely?  Haven't  I got things to make and do, lists to write? blogs to update? carpets to hoover? 

The thing is when you're in that funk its so hard to keep in mind that it will pass. The energy, enthusiasm and motivation will return when its good and ready and forcing it is counter productive.  Luckily I am on the upswing and just in the nick of time (the social event is this weekend).  My energy has returned and I'm sure motivation and enthusiasm are lurking somewhere near.  


It's taken me a good few years to accept and recognise the rhythms of life and to go with them rather than fight them but even though deep down I 'know' this The Low still takes me by surprise when it happens. It is  hard to trust that things will turn out ok, but essentially that is all you need to do.


There....lecture over....I shall reward patient readers with a pic of my lovely new Tolosa Park hat....




 Of course, hindsight is a wonderful thing.......hence why I'm blogging about it now rather than a week ago.


So, if anyone out there is feeling a bit low or out of sorts, I would like to urge you to go and make yourself something nice, find somewhere comfy and repeat after me "So What.....I need a rest".


Best wishes to all whether you are up, down or half way between the two x
 

1 comment:

slbma said...

Hi there... I just came over via narrowboat wife. I needed this post this morning! You're right, it's hard to let yourself go with the natural rhythms of life when things are getting you down, but you're right. We should. I try to watch nature to learn about how I should be... I'm thinking that right now I should be hibernating!!!!!

love love love the hat :-)